on photos and closed door

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feb 17 - 5:00 - 6:00 PM
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i visited g.w. my coordinator told me that she's an active dying patient but i was surprised that when i visited her she can still carry a conversation.i was expecting to see her sleeping or non-responsive like anna (my first patient who passed away after my 1st visit).

we talked about the pictures posted on her wall and she explained to me who they are. i asked her if she has a pet because i saw in her profile that she has a dog and she said "no, i just have that one" and she pointed to a dog stuffed-toy. i asked him what the dog's name is and she said she forgot.
after a few more chit-chats i said my goodbye and i told her i'll be visiting her again which she replied with "that would be nice".


when i visited c.b. i was surprised that the door is closed. i tried to knock thinking that maybe a nurse is helping one of the patients inside to change their clothes but i heard no response so i went ahead and opened the door. the first thing i saw is an old guy squinting because i think i woke him up because i opened the door. it was very dark inside. i went ahead and went straight to c.b.'s bed (middle bed). i said hi to carl but i was half whispering because i dont want to wake up the other patients (i might have upset one patient already because the light might have hurt his eyes when i opened the door)... i just sat there only for a bit because it really got a lil uncomfortable. it is dark inside and i dont want to turn on the lights because i'm scared to get yelled at.