get me out of here

Oct 8, 2009 (thurs) - 4:30pm - 5:50pm

=== T ===
(T) is in his room and I was surprise to see how frail he looked.... he was tucked inside the blanket and i can only see his face..... i said hi but he just opened his eyes briefly..... i told him i'll read to him again and did just that.... when it's time to go i said goodbye but i guess he's already sleeping because
he didn't open his eyes...



=== J ===
(J)'s in the dining hall and she's not touching her dinner...
we just chatted for a bit and watched tv the whole time...




=== I ===


it was dinner when i got to (I) and so I just watched the other male nurse while he feeds her because (I) is not eating.... it was kinda entertaining watching the nurse and (I) exchange small talks while (I) was being fed... the way the nurse would tease (I) that she's stubborn ( (I) just suddenly decided her food is not clean & won't eat it) and how (I) would make faces because of that looked really funny to me.... it was also funny how (I) suddenly told the nurse she doesn't like how the food tastes when she just said a minute ago that the food is tasty and the nurse would retorted back telling her: "are you pulling my leg (I)?" and (I) replied "blech! i'll give you your leg back", lol.... she's a darling....


=== P ===

she was sitting at the edge of the bed, both her foot on the floor but half her body is lying on the bed with her food untouched..... when i knocked and said hi to her she bolted up and screamed "get me out of here!" with her eyes all wide..... i was kinda shocked ofcourse, i've never seen her that angry before....

so i walked closer to her and rubbed her back and whispered "everything's ok" a few times....but she just kept screaming "get me out of here" and the "i want my sister, where's my sister"..... i told her she just left for a bit but she'll be back and she said "no! you keep saying that"....eek! i dont know what to say after that.... and then she continued screaming again and then she started crying...... oh boy, oh boy.... i dont like seeing anyone cry infront of me....that's just my weakness..... so i rubbed her back again and smoothed her hair and i gently told her to stop crying because she's starting to make me cry too.... but she just continue saying to get her out of that place..... poor, poor (P)..... i know she's getting lonely and bored there..... but she needs to be there where she can be taken cared of better with the nurses and the aids..... then she started screaming that i should call the police because her house is burning..... and she kinda mentioned her father between calling the police and the house burning....... anyway, when she calmed down that's when i left....i told her to take a rest and that we'll go find her sister....